There are so many thoughts going through my mind, I'm not even sure where to start. I guess the easiest place to start of with is Duncan. He is doing well. I am starting to trust him. He is still a little looky at things, but he doesn't really spook anymore. Today the snow fell off and he didn't even care. He needs to work on forward and listening, but it will come with time. I am happy where we are, and excited to move forward.
This is not necessarily relating to just Duncan. Other stuff has been bugging me lately. The other day I was thinking about how life used to be, and how much has changed. Some of my best friends have gone to college, I'm heading there soon, Duncan and I are going to New York for Dressage for Kids, I'm going to do some western riding with him, I have been to more barns in the past few months than I ever have been in my life, and I'm more confused than ever. Some great things are happening. I am going to Houghton soon, and am beyond ready to meet new people and start a "new life". Duncan and I are finally doing well.. finally! I'm a senior, and it's pretty awesome. So many exciting things are happening, but with all of these new chances, comes sadness for the things I'm loosing. My old friends, who I will now only see during vacations and summer. I'm going far away, and won't be able to come home for a long weekend. I have some great friends, and it hasn't always been that way, and just when life seems good, it's time to leave. I will never be in high school again. And Duncan has to move eventually, and I have to leave a really great place. After I left Robyn's I searched for where I wanted to be. I wasn't sure of who I was as a rider without being in her shadow. And I found some place. Some place awesome, but nothing is permanent. So I have to say goodbye when I feel like I'm not done saying hello. And it really makes me mad. Why couldn't it have been sooner? Why now? It's frustrating, and sad, and I'm just really sick of change right now.
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