Realizations

I realized today that there is a big difference between being realistic and just being negative. You can think about worst case scenario, but you still have to let yourself be happy. You can't just be consumed by the bad stuff all the time.

With Duncan there will be bad times. There will be days I want to quit. But it always gets better. I allow myself to always go to worse case scenario; I will never have fun with him, he will never be not spooky, this is so hopeless. I do have fun when I have good rides, there are times when I bring him in and he doesn't spook, and I am doing it. Right here, right now, I go everyday and work him, and I can handle him. It almost felt like I couldn't allow myself to be happy because I was always worried about if Duncan would calm down enough that I could do it. Well I am doing it, slowly, but surely. It will come.