Frustration. That is about where I'm at right now. Mega frustrated. I can't ride. I suck, and I don't know why, or how to fix it. I have gotten so much worse in a year and you can not even believe how much that aggravates me. Mad beyond belief.
Duncan is good though (thank God I'm not the one training him). He's getting better under saddle. He's pretty chill, but I just need to trust him, which will hopefully come with time. It's a slow process, but we're miles from where we were.
I guess I just don't know where to go from here. I'm so mad at myself.